So I have spent the last 10 days TRYING to blog. When I blog, if I have to think too hard about how to put something I try for a little bit longer but then I toss the idea.
Today I had a conversation with a good friend of mine and BAM…an idea that applies to my life lately was born and it is spilling out of my head. Let’s hope I can catch it all.
So…the life preserver. We know it as a personal flotation device designed to assist a wearer in keeping afloat. As a child you had the floaters that people put on your arms. You could jump feet first in a pool or lake and you would float. In a boat I believe it is required for you to have a life jacket in the boat for all occupants in case of emergency where you need to jump ship. You can stay afloat until someone comes to take you to shore…to safety. A pool has many of them on display where they can throw them to someone in distress and they can grab them and save their life.
All of those examples are about people being in water. No I am not ready for swimsuit weather QUITE yet but those examples are that way for a reason. The Monday after Jay died I went on an anti-depressant to keep me above water. See…there is that reference to water again, darn it. You are either going to need to use the restroom, be VERY thirsty or want to go swimming after you read this blog. My hope is swimming and I’ll explain why. If you have been on any kind of anti-anxiety or anti-depressant you get asked by your doctor if the medicine is helping during your check-ups. It wasn’t until I told my doctor that I could “ride the waves” that they knew things were working well. Enough with the water references already Alyssa. Tell them what they need to know.
Life is like a body of water. If you feel trapped by life you might be in a pool where you can see the edges. Some are content here and that is ok. Being content is GOOD. When a life changing event happens you feel like you just got dropped from the sky into a big body of water without a life preserver and asked to make it to the edge. You cannot see the edges…how the HECK do you keep your energy to get to safety. Many people go to medication and that is not bad either. Some need medication for short or long amounts of time. We are not all made the same. END of medication rant. Back to water…
Whether life is in a pool where you can go to the edge and even better yet have a place where you can touch the bottom or a lake/ocean where you cannot see the other side and there are many unknowns of whether a fish just swam by you or what that was, life is a body of water. The waves can get wicked sometimes and other times you can see straight to the bottom and the water can be completely calm. The key is your life preserver. You may be a really good swimmer but have moments where you need an actual flotation device and that is OK. I believe for me I have a pool but recently I have been playing in the ocean. I can swim but I’m not a lap swimmer by any means. I need my life preservers…Aaron…my family…my friends. I’m getting comfortable in the ocean. There is a beautiful view and better yet a beach with lots of sand to relax every once awhile.
Moral of my story today…you don’t have to go into the ocean if you don’t want too and my hope is that you are never dropped into the water and expected to swim without your life preservers near. But make sure you have enough life preservers present in your life. Keep them in good condition. Make sure you can see them. Make sure not to have just one type. You need all types in life. And if you take a little time to relax, look out into the ocean, lay on the beach and make sure to get a GREAT tan. 🙂