Love like

There is a song out right now that gets me every time I hear it.  It is the song “Like I’m gonna lose you”, by Meghan Trainor and John Legend.

Every time I hear it, the following phrases come through crystal clear.

“I’m gonna love you, like I’m gonna lose you.”

“In the blink of an eye, just a whisper of smoke, you could lose everything, the truth is you never know.”

“We’re not promised tomorrow, love with no regret”

Every time I hear the song, I wonder what the world would be like if everyone understood these words.  I wonder what the world would be like if people never wanted people to lose people.

Every time I hear the song it makes me want to hug everyone close to me.  It makes me want to hug Aaron longer.  It makes me want to hug Kelby longer.  I feel the urge to tell my parents, brother, grandma, Aaron, Kelby and close friends how much they mean to me. It allows the words “I love you” to flow more freely to those around me.

The song can break my mindset of any negative thought with 6 words.  “Love like I’m gonna lose you.”

Next time you hear the song, listen to the lyrics.  Whether you like Meghan or John, it doesn’t matter.  The lyrics speak volumes and that to me is better than any melody or voice.

Next time you hear the song, you can guarantee if I am listening to it as well I am focusing on the part where they say “Love…like I’m gonna lose you.”


My Chapter 2

Last Friday night, I said something I swore I would never say again.  Not because I didn’t really want too.  I didn’t think I could.  I didn’t think it was possible.  But to my surprise, it was and I did.

Last Friday night, my boyfriend and I were enjoying a wonderful child-free evening eating at a wonderful restaurant in town.  After an appetizer and a glass of wine, he grabbed my hands and told me the last year had been the best of his life.  He then told me how blessed he felt having Aaron and me in his life.  He then stood up from the table, reached in his pocket, knelt on his knee next to me and asked me to marry him.

I really wish they would have had a photographer there to get my reaction.  I was confused by him standing up.  I started to get a clue when he reached in his pocket.  I saw an event unfold in front of me I never thought possible again.  And then I said the one word I never thought I would say again.  I said, “yes!!”

I remember the day I told a dear friend of mine “I would never date again.”  I told her I would never love again.  It would not be fair to the man here on earth.  My heart was broken beyond repair.  There was not enough left of my heart to give anyone else.  What was left was all for Aaron.

And then…about 2 years after I made this declaration, I started to think maybe it might be possible, although not probable I would truly love again.  And then I would meet a man named Kelby who would change everything.

Through email and text he could have me smiling so much my mouth hurt.  I would laugh hearing his stories and waiting for the next impossible story he would tell me.

He would show up late to our first date and I didn’t care.  I just wanted to meet this man who had this impact on me before even meeting him.  He would let me win one game of darts…out of the 3 we played.  And as I got up in his face about his last throw in one of our dart games, he would lean in and kiss me.  It is in this moment, I fell in love with him.

I have watched as instead of leaning back and away from me as I talk about my last couple years, he leans in and asks questions and comforts me when I cry.  It takes a brave man to be a woman’s “Chapter 2.”  It takes a brave woman to be willing to write another chapter.

On November 6,2015, I said “Yes” to my Chapter 2.