If you’re happy and you know it…

Posted Friday January 25, 2013

So this morning a few questions crossed my mind.

 “Will I ever be truly happy again?” 

“Is it OK to be happy?”

“What will/does happy feel like?”

I think every woman or man in my situation has or will ask themself these questions as some point and time.  As I worked through my grief at Amanda the Panda it was interesting to me how my “Pie chart of emotion” changed in 8 weeks.  At the beginning a good 60% of my emotion was anger.  By the end of the 8 weeks that 60% was now occupied by acceptance and happiness.  This change makes me smile but still confuses me from time to time.  I still put sadness after 8 weeks and the part that gets me is how can I be sad AND happy at the same time.  My only thought is that I need to let go of the guilt I feel for thinking about happiness.

After thinking about this all day my answers are the following;

Yes, Yes and I guess I will know when it happens.

One Reply to “If you’re happy and you know it…”

  1. Alyssa
    I’m so proud of you in working this blog. It is truly not easy for any of us to understand what you have or are going through. Keep it up, and know that I am there with you in spirit.
    Hugs to you and Aaron.

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