Posted Friday January 25, 2013
So this morning a few questions crossed my mind.
“Will I ever be truly happy again?”
“Is it OK to be happy?”
“What will/does happy feel like?”
I think every woman or man in my situation has or will ask themself these questions as some point and time. As I worked through my grief at Amanda the Panda it was interesting to me how my “Pie chart of emotion” changed in 8 weeks. At the beginning a good 60% of my emotion was anger. By the end of the 8 weeks that 60% was now occupied by acceptance and happiness. This change makes me smile but still confuses me from time to time. I still put sadness after 8 weeks and the part that gets me is how can I be sad AND happy at the same time. My only thought is that I need to let go of the guilt I feel for thinking about happiness.
After thinking about this all day my answers are the following;
Yes, Yes and I guess I will know when it happens.