8 months

sent 1/9/2013

4 months.  For those who look at that and think I’ve lost my mind, no I have not forgotten how to count, I just look at things a little different because we are 4 months from a YEAR.  Can you believe it?  I know I can’t. 

We have done so much in the last 8 months but to recap the last month here you go:

The week of December 10th was for holiday parties.  A group I attend called “No time to grieve I’m parenting” had a holiday party.  It was great to be around people that “understand” and still celebrate the holiday.  Then I was invited to Jay’s work holiday party.  I felt honored to be invited.  Jay’s co-workers spent almost as much time with him as Aaron and I did so I feel close to him when I’m surrounded by them.  I am very fortunate to have such strong support from his co-workers.  They are family. 

The week of December 17th was for concerts.  I went to the Blenders concert as well as Mannheim Steamrollers.  I say a special THANK YOU to the two people that went with me to the concerts.  There was laughter and tears both nights for different reasons.  It was nice to get out and get myself in the “holiday spirit”.  We were front row center for the Blenders concert and 3rd row pretty much center for Mannheim.  My angel watching over me made sure we had the best seats in the house. J Aaron and I also survived our first snow storm together.  Last year was so nice that in December I think we actually took Aaron for a stroller ride.  Not so much this year.

The week of December 24th was…Christmas.  The one word that made me buckle at the knees a few months prior was actually a good time.  My family and I went to a hotel with a water park in Sioux Falls, SD just 30 minutes from my parent’s house.  Aaron could show off his baby swimming skills…mommy could sleep…we could Christmas and just be.  I am very fortunate for such an understanding and loving family.  They are my rock. 

 The week of December 31st was New Years.  It is otherwise known as the first holiday to actually make me buckle at the knees.  I did NOT see that coming.  A good friend of mine said it was because for the last 8 months I have been looking at the next day, or hour depending on the day and to look at the next year was probably a little overwhelming.  I’m going to go with that explanation because it makes sense.  All said and done I made it through the New Year so just one more thing to say I have done. This week also brought sinus problems for me.  I never had sinus problems before…that was Jay’s thing.  I know I got his wit when he passed but if this was part of the package as well…I send it ALL BACK.  OK well maybe not the wit…that has come in handy a few times. J 

 So far this week Aaron and I have been to the ER and I spoke at John Deere Financial for a lunch and learn about Amanda the Panda and how they have helped me.  OK, so back to the ER visit.  Everyone is fine but Aaron had croup.  Thank you to my friend that went with us to the ER to help me stay calm and hold Aaron as they gave him the liquid steroid and a breathing treatment.  So in the first week of the year Aaron and I have been to the doctor 4 times.  Let’s hope that slows down. I look at the next month and we stay busy.  I am speaking at an Amanda the Panda event on January 17th and I am very excited.  I love to speak and share our story.  It’s therapeutic if you can believe it.  We are also starting a kitchen renovation.  So this month will be the “Taber Organize and Clean” initiative.  I will make sure to take before/after pictures and maybe that is all next month’s update will be. 😉

I usually leave you with lyrics to a song right?  Well in my NYE sadness I wrote a poem I would like to share instead.  Thank you again for all of your support, I am standing today because of each and every one of you.  I hope you all have a great week.

Missing you

I miss you

Three words say it all

But when words fail me

It’s you I want to call

But you’re not here

To hold me close

Say it’ll be OK

We all have highs and lows

My heart hurts

I want to stay strong

I know you are gone

But that’s not where you belong

I love you

I live with fear

I miss you

I wish you were here

7 months

sent to friend on 12/10/2012

Happy Holidays Friends!

Thanksgiving has come and gone and now I’m looking at Christmas and the New Year in front of me.  I know I sound like a broken record but I sincerely thank each and everyone one of you for being a very important part of this journey.  Without you I would be lost. 

Below is an update on the last month.

Saturday November 10th was the Iowa Donor Network Holiday party.  It was quite emotional and I think next year we will take a few people with us.  It was a great opportunity to get out of the house and remember the wonderful thing Jay did in his death. Thanksgiving: In the past few months I have been looking ahead to Thanksgiving and had the thought of “What the heck am I thankful for this year…this year has sucked!”  Then the morning of Thanksgiving I had the most amazing thought…”I have many reasons to be mad but I choose to be grateful for: 1) the time we had 2) the gifts he gave 3) and for the amazing angel we now have watching over us”.  

 Saturday December 1st was the Amanda the Panda Holiday party.  Aaron sat on Santa’s lap and had a good time.  I went with support to this party and that made eating and enjoying the event a little easier. Thanks Jill!

Monday December 3rd was my last session at Amanda the Panda.  The first week we did an activity that made us display in a pie chart our emotions at that point and time.  On Monday we were asked to do the same thing except with how we felt now.  Keeping in mind we didn’t realize (atleast I didn’t) that we had handed the first ones in and could do a comparison.  Below is the before and After pictures.   

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Before: LOTS of anger… a good amount of hurt/disbelief…some lonliness and sadnessAfter: a little bit of anger…still some sadness but to my surprise I chose to put Acceptance and Happiness in the chart.  Infact it looks like the anger from before is the same amount taken up by Acceptance and happiness.  Although surprising I can attribute the acceptance and happiness to the many people in my life and this overwhelming feeling of support I get each and every day.  Amanda the Panda is a wonderful organization that helped me in ways I am just beginning to understand.  I have also made some amazing friends through my group and I will forever be thankful for them.

Wednesday December 5th I spoke in front of  between 80-90 Iowa Donor Network employees at their quarterly meeting.  I enjoy speaking about Jay and this journey we are on.  It has truly helped me move forward.  Iowa Donor Network is an amazing group of people and I am very fortunate to have had the opportunity to speak to them.  

Sunday December 9th – Aaron and I went to church with our friend Andrea.  I have had many suggest going to church and it just didn’t feel right until this weekend and I am glad we were able to go.  Ironically this was the exact 7 month anniversary.  We also went with friends to our first Iowa State Basketball game.  All in all it was a pretty uplifting day.

Aaron update: He continues to amaze me.  He knows the word “NO” and “Yeah” and not surpringly is already giving me the look Jay would give me to get pretty much whatever he wants.  I am in SO much trouble.  He is within weeks if not sooner of walking on his own.  He is getting into cupboards and entertaining the idea of going up our stairs.   Overall I truly feel the week of December 3rd was a turning point in this journey I’m on and I will embrace Christmas and the New Year the way Jay would want me too.  We will never forget Jay because he was an amazing person that could talk to anyone, make us laugh or smile (even if we didn’t want to) and make everyone feel special. The lyrics I give you today are kinda funny considering Jay would say “NO!  I hate that stuff!” but I find meaning and messages in the most interesting songs.   So in honor of Jay’s “love” for the white stuff that falls from the sky…enjoy and have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Oh the weather outside is frightful

But the fire is so delightful

And since we’ve no place to go

Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

It doesn’t show signs of stopping

And I’ve bought some corn for popping

 The lights are turned way down low

Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!
When we finally kiss goodnight How I’ll hate going out in the storm! But if you’ll really hold me tight All the way home I’ll be warm
The fire is slowly dying And, my dear, we’re still goodbying But as long as you love me so Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

6 months

Sent to friend on 11/12/2012

6 months ago today I said good-bye to my best friend, my husband, the father of our child. 

 6 months seems like such a long period of time yet most days it seems like only yesterday and I still have a feeling that someday he will walk back through the door.   I could continue down the path of sad thoughts or I could give you a list (and of course stories) of things that have happened and that I have learned in the last month.  I chose the latter.

Mouse in Garage – This story STILL makes me laugh and I truly believe Jay was laughing from above.  It can only be truly appreciated for those who know how very scared I am of mice and how much crap Jay gave me for it.   Aaron and I got home from shopping one night and he fell asleep in the car so I grabbed the bags and got them in the house.  As I opened the door to go back out and get Aaron I look down on the rug by the garage steps and there is a mouse.  At the time I thought it was alive.  I slam the door shut and then the terrifying thought crosses my mind.  I HAVE to go back into the garage because I have to get Aaron out of the car.  If Jay were here, this would definitely be something I would have him take care of but he isn’t so I stand and think for a second.  Luckily my contractor had put the key pad back on the garage so I unlocked the front doors, open the garage with the key pad and grabbed the first thing I saw to chase the mouse with.  This happens to be a roll of weed block for some landscaping we are going to do in the front yard.  Note to self…I need to put something that makes more noise and can do more damage at the back of the garage.  I hit this roll of weed block on the garage floor until I get to the front of the garage and I peak at the rug only to see the mouse still there feet up in the air dead and dead can be.  I’m not about to pick up the rug OR the mouse to get it out of the garage so I use my roll of weed block to roll up the rug and push it out of the garage into the drive way.  The mouse falls out of the rug, I grab the rug shake it and run back to the front of the garage hit the garage door opener, throw the rug down, open the car door to Aaron, get him out of his car seat in record time, open and slam the garage door to the house shut.  Aaron gave me a look like I was crazy and I will give him that one.  My dad mentioned that this was only a dead mouse and I agree.  But if you are listening to me Jay…give me another year before I tackle the fear of a real mouse.  The dead one almost did me in.

Waterbabies – Jay and I had always talked about getting Aaron into Waterbabies so when one of the moms at daycare asked me if Aaron and I would like to get in a class with them I jumped at the opportunity.  It is nice being in a heated pool at the YMCA.  It is a great workout for me and Aaron loves it.  We sing songs and walk around in circles.  Aaron loves to lay on his back as we sing “Twinkle Twinkle little Star”.  And yes I have dunked Aaron.  He doesn’t mind it at all and that works for me.  

Halloween – Halloween was one of Jay’s favorite holidays.  I have to admit I wasn’t looking forward to it.  I got Aaron a monkey costume since his giraffe one from last year didn’t fit him anymore.  I went to Costco the day of Beggars night in Grimes to get our traditional boxes of chips that Jay always got.  I had our friend Nick carve out a “2” in a pumpkin and then with a sharpie put “My 2nd Halloween” on the pumpkin with the 2 being carved out.  I think Jay would have liked that idea.  It was nice out so Aaron and I sat on the porch and handed out chips to the trick-or-treaters.  We did that for about an hour and then we closed up and went to the Grimes Fire Department to talk with our friends there.  I’m hoping in years to come it gets easier to get through that holiday.  We also went with our friends the Hanshaws to “Night Eyes” at Blank Park Zoo.  It was a dark cold night so Aaron was bundled nice and warm and it was really neat.  MAYBE when Aaron is old enough I will go through a haunted house with him.  Jay would be impressed if I could do that considering I refused to go through them with him.  

Aaron’s 1st Birthday – It is amazing to see the difference a year can make.  When Aaron was born, we were due for a scheduled c-section on 10/24 but Aaron had different plans and started my contractions at 4AM on 10/23.  It didn’t surprise me when he woke me up at 4AM on his birthday.  There are many times that I wish I could see Aaron and Jay play and hang out.  I know Jay is watching over us and at times I catch Aaron looking just over my shoulder, he smiles and I swear he says “da-da”.  I am sure Jay is right there watching over us I just wish he was here in the physical form.  

Broken Stove/oven – Jay was the cook of the family and he was good at it.  J   When I would make something he would laugh and say, “See I told you that you can cook!”  Apparently I make a few good dishes but to be honest the thought of actually baking something in the last 6 months just hasn’t seemed right.  But the other day I thought “Hmm…maybe I could bake a pizza for Aaron”.  So I turned on the stove and put it to “Rapid preheat”.  We did this often so I didn’t expect there to be problems.  A few minutes into the preheat the kitchen lights dimmed and came back.  I thought it was just me blinking until it did it again.  And then I heard the convection fan part of the oven wind down and when I looked over at the stove all the lights were out.  And it won’t turn back on.  To add to the story I swore we got the stove a little over a year ago from Lowes.  After calling Lowes and calling their service department I found out that is where we got our microwave…NOT our stove.  *sigh* So for now I have a broken stove, but soon I am sure I will find time to get it fixed.  I will cook again, but that will be an update for next month.

I hope you enjoyed our stories.  As I have done in the past I will leave you with lyrics to a song I was listening to the other day and had to know what was actually being said.  The more I read it, the more I relate to it.  So many of you have helped me in the last 6 months and I appreciate each and every one o f you.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart.  

“Home” by Phillip Phillips

Hold on, to me as we go

As we roll down this unfamiliar road

And although this wave is stringing us along

Just know you’re not alone

Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Settle down, it’ll all be clear

Don’t pay no mind to the demons

They fill you with fear

The trouble it might drag you down

If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone

Cause I’m going to make this place your home

5 months

Sent to friends 10/8/2012

As I write this to touch base with all of you I go back to May 9th in my mind and it feels like it was just yesterday even though it has been 5 months. 

It is hard to think about that day and all the days since but I know deep down in my heart that someday when Aaron asks me to tell him about that day and the first 5 months afterwards I will be able to tell him everything and I will.  

The theme as an American to September 11th is “Never Forget”.  On that day I stood in front of a little over 100 financial advisors for Principal Financial Group and told our story, explaining the importance of life insurance.  I only hope Jay looked down and was proud.  As I finished my speech everyone got to the feet and clapped.  Aaron was presented with an Iowa State football jersey signed by Paul Rhoads.  They ended my portion of the meeting with the Iowa State fight song.  (it was awesome)  I got the crowd to start clapping through the song, even Hawk fans if you can believe it.  It was a great experience; I hope to have many more as talking and sharing Jay’s legacy of planning and being a wonderful and loving person is good therapy. 

Jay is gone but we will never forget, that I will make sure of. Each and every day I try to do things the way he would.  I try to make him proud of me.  I can feel him smile at me in the morning when I decide to get out of bed.  Some days are harder than others but I can only hope I am setting a good example for Aaron.  

We went to our second Iowa State football game two weekends ago.  Aaron was a little fussy at the start but then again made friends with all of those around us clapping and smiling and was sleeping by halftime.  I am so glad that he enjoys the games.  All of the action really gets his attention.  

This past weekend I walked in two 5K run/walks…yes TWO.  It felt great.  It is important to get and stay healthy. Jay had wonderful friends.  I have wonderful friends.  All of our friends have helped me in the last 5 months in some way.  We are doing OK.  It is still (and will be for awhile) a day at a time…sometimes an hour or a minute at time.  With the love & support of good friends & my family, I know I can do anything.

4 months

Sent to friends on 9/10/2012

Hello Again, 

4 months ago today I woke up to a new life in front of Aaron and me…it feels like it was just yesterday.  With the help of close friends I have made it through each day one at a time.  

In the last month Aaron and I have done many things, here is an update:   

Week of August 20th – We made a trip to Madison, WI where John Deere Financial has an office.  Grandma Cleveringa went with us and we had a wonderful time.  Mommy worked while Grandma and Aaron played.  J  We got to visit Great Grandma Simonson which made a great stop in driving and it is always nice to see her.  It was great to see my wonderful co-workers from WI.  

September 1st – We went to our first Iowa State Football game.  Aaron was in awe of the crowd and the game in general.  His awe and excitement was wonderful to see.  We made it to half-time and then Aaron fell asleep so we left.  GO CYCLONES!!!!

September 4th – This would have been Jay and my 8 year wedding anniversary.  The days prior and the actual day were not easy but I made it through with the love and support of many and with my mom by my side which helped immensely.   This past weekend we went up to my parents.  Aaron is a very good traveler and enjoyed seeing Grandma, Grandpa, Uncle Eric and Aunt Leslie.  Plus Aaron’s Cyclones beat the Hawkeyes which always makes the weekend nice. 😉  No comment about his Greenbay Packers…just no comment.  I’m happy to report that we got our one loss out of the way so that is good.   Thank you to all that continue to support me through this difficult time.  This journey has not been easy so I appreciate your patience and kindness you have shown me.

Valentine’s day…the under-estimated holiday

Posted Sunday January 27, 2013

Last night my idea for my blog was “Everything I should not say or feel”.  As you can imagine that has ALOT of anger behind it. 

Luckily, a car ride, iced tea from starbucks and hour and a half drive around the metro,  cooler heads prevail. 

My topic today is “Valentine’s Day…the under-estimated holiday”.

So first things first, how does a widow survive the big holiday Valentine’s day?  I am going to take a stab at it with my “14 days of Valentine’s day”.  If it proves therapeutic I may have myself a new tradition.  What I am going to do is from February 1st to February 14th, I am going to give 0ut 14 gifts each day.  I figure this way I can focus on others and not myself.  I haven’t decided what actual Valentine’s day will hold for me but maybe I will go out somewhere with Aaron.  Everyone always (or atleast it feels that way) thinks that the “hard” holidays are Thanksgiving and Christmas.  So far that theory to me is completely bogus. 

My memories of Valentine’s Day are so much better than any Thanksgiving or Christmas.  It took awhile but I finally had Jay trained that I like white roses and that it was OK to get them for me on Valentine’s Day.  White roses were our wedding flower.  There were a few years that he got me red and his reasoning was…”It just doesn’t seem right to give a girl anything but red roses on Valentine’s day”.  He was such a planner.  There are a couple years we got reservations to a restaurant for Valentine’s day  Honestly, I didn’t need any of it.  I just wanted Jay.  All I needed was a hug and a kiss and that was enough, whether he knew or believed it.  It was the week before Valentine’s day in 2004 that Jay proposed to me.  He spelled “Alyssa Marie Taber” down the right side of the poem.  He planned everything and was so passionate in what and how he felt about people. 

I’m not going to lie…for some reason the past two nights have been difficult.  For some reason seeing hearts all around reminds me how good of a heart Jay had and yet that was the one organ that failed him in the end.  It is a reminder that he is not here.  He’s not here to hug me.  To kiss me.  I sit here at night and want him here.  I want him here to obsess about how Aaron is doing in the milestone’s of a 15 month year old…to gripe to me about what I worry about…to teach me something I did not know.  My heart is broken.  I want it healed.  If I could have one thing for Valentine’s day, it would be a healed heart or atleast the light showing me that it is possible.  I wish I knew what that light looked like. 

I will get through this holiday just like I did the others and I hope everyone hugs and kisses their loved ones a little bit longer this year.  I know I wish I could.

If you’re happy and you know it…

Posted Friday January 25, 2013

So this morning a few questions crossed my mind.

 “Will I ever be truly happy again?” 

“Is it OK to be happy?”

“What will/does happy feel like?”

I think every woman or man in my situation has or will ask themself these questions as some point and time.  As I worked through my grief at Amanda the Panda it was interesting to me how my “Pie chart of emotion” changed in 8 weeks.  At the beginning a good 60% of my emotion was anger.  By the end of the 8 weeks that 60% was now occupied by acceptance and happiness.  This change makes me smile but still confuses me from time to time.  I still put sadness after 8 weeks and the part that gets me is how can I be sad AND happy at the same time.  My only thought is that I need to let go of the guilt I feel for thinking about happiness.

After thinking about this all day my answers are the following;

Yes, Yes and I guess I will know when it happens.

The status change

Posted Wednesday January 23, 2013

So here is is day 3 since the official start of my blog and never did I think I would still have a topic to talk about. I figured after the first day I would either have written it all or just not be able to do it. To the contrary, on the way to work this morning I thought of a topic I want to blog about.

 The status Change
As a girl, you dream of the day you find the man you want to spend the rest of your life with. You dream about the moment when you fall in love, the day he proposes, the day you get married and the moment you become parents. In this scenario you go from “single”, to “in a relationship”, to “engaged”, to “married” and finally to “married and sleep deprived”. 🙂 These are all happy status changes.

No one dreams of changing their status from “married” to “widow.”
The first time I saw this change was after I went back to work. I had to call HR and get our insurance modified. As a part of process Jay had to be taken off many things and when that was done my status changed to widow. I didn’t see it in the system right away.  It wasn’t until I logged into my account a week later that I saw the status change.  Why seeing it written had such an effect I’m not sure because for a little over a month at that time that is exactly what I was…a widow.  Seeing it in plain text took me down a dark road and I am very lucky to have friends and family that ran after me and brought me back. 

In this journey, I have decided to accept my status change for what it is.  It was not a “planned” status change by any stretch of the imagination but it happened.  Early on in the journey I felt defined by Jay’s death and my new status.  As I am further down the road, I have decided that is unacceptable.  I grieve every day and I will for the rest of my life in some way.  But in this journey…as Jay would want…I will not be defined by this grief or status change.  I will choose what defines me, that is something in this unpredictable world that I can control.

another poem I wrote recently

“The A word”

I am angry you left us
even though I know you did not

I am angry I’m alone
even though I know I’m not

I am angry our son will never know you
even though I know he will

I am angry that I am scared
at all that is His will

All this anger in my heart
is raw and sometimes hard to chart

I will do my best to make it through
because my dear I love you

Milestones


Posted Tuesday January 22nd, 2013

Tomorrow I am faced with another milestone.  Aaron turns 15 months old.

My first wish every morning and my last wish every night is that Jay was here to see how much Aaron has grown.  To see it when Aaron says a new word…gives a new facial expression or reaches a new milestone.  I have to remind myself every morning and every night that he is here, he is watching just not in the way I wish he was.  When I truly have perspective on any given day I know in my heart that Jay is actually with Aaron more then I am.  Jay is with Aaron always, watching over him and making sure he is always OK.  Although I wish him back every minute of every day, how lucky is Aaron?  How lucky am I to have an angel that is always there watching over us.  I know Jay is with me when I need him.  I believe with all my heart that is why I was able to speak at his funeral.  Also why I was able to speak in front of a little over 100 financial planners from Principal, between 80-90 employees from the Iowa Donor Network, around 100 people at a fundraiser for Project Panda (GDMLI project for Amanda the Panda) and document in a blog to tell our story.  As crazy as it sounds, speaking and writing…it heals me and that is enough motivation to keep me going.

A poem I wrote on new Years Eve

Missing you

I miss you
Three words say it all
But when words fail me
It’s you I want to call

But you’re not here
To hold me close
Say it’ll be OK
We all have highs and lows

My heart hurts
I want to stay strong
I know you are gone
But that’s not where you belong

I love you
I live with fear
I miss you
I wish you were here

The beginning

Posted Monday January 21, 2013

Today is the day I officially start our blog.  I start on a day that I would consider a “good” day.  It has been a little over 8 months since Jay died and today I was finally able to start boxing up his shirts.  I look at everything I/we have done in the last 8 months and I’m unsure why this was such a difficult thing to do but then I realize it was how he left his things.  Early in our journey no one could sit in his chair or even move it for that matter.  Since then it has been moved and although it doesn’t get sat in very often, I would be OK if someone did.  When they call it a “journey” that is exactly what it is but that is life right?

I have accomplished many things in the last 8 months.  The most important thing I have learned in this journey is this…I am only responsible for my grief and to take care of our son.  If there is one piece of advice I could give anyone going through my situation or any type of grief it woud be that because as I have learned, everyone deals with grief in a different way and that is OK because no one is the same and we are always a work in progress.

I will begin adding excerpts from my monthly emails to the friends and family in this blog but to get caught up I wil be posting a few with each blog entry.

Here is the the email I sent to my department the day I returned to work: All, First I want to thank all of you for your condolences and support in the last few weeks.  I appreciate everything you have done for me and my family.   Today I return to work.  I kindly ask that all questions about what happened and other questions about the situation wait a few weeks as I try to find my new normal I am faced with.   Thank you in advance for your consideration.

This is an excerpt from the email I sent family and friends 3 months after Jay died.  It outlines events of the first 3 months.

Saturday May 12th was the most difficult day of my life.  Being surrounded by many of you helped in ways you will never fully understand so thank you again.  For those that made it to the visitation on Friday thank you as well.  The Hamilton’s staff was so wonderful and I am thankful for their patience and guidance in those first days.  I am proud of the service I was able to give Jay.

On Sunday May 13th (Mother’s day), Aaron and I spent the day at Glazed Expressions.  We picked up the gift Jay and Aaron had made for me a couple weeks prior.  It was a square vase with Aaron’s hand and foot prints.  I could only hope now that I had a picture of Jay putting the paint on Aaron’s hands and feet and getting him to do the prints.  I have my own mental picture of it and it makes me laugh.

On Monday May 14th, Aaron went back to daycare at Apple Tree in Urbandale.  The amazing people there have helped Aaron and I adjust to our new normal.  I consider all of them our family.

On June 5th (Jay’s 34th birthday), we received a notice in the mail that Jay’s cornea donation had restored the site of two people.

On June 6th, Aaron was presented with the first ever annual Grimes Fire and Rescue Association scholarship.  My apologies to my neighbors as I am sure there was panic as 2 fire trucks, an ambulance and 2 officer vehicles pulled up to our house. 😉 We are very fortunate to have such a wonderful group of people in our community care for us.

On June 7th I went back to work.  I am very fortunate to work for such an awesome company and have such wonderful co-workers.  We also received a thank you from one of the cornea transplant recipients.

On Saturday June 17th (Father’s day weekend), team “the Jay Walkers” walked in the American Association Heart Walk here in Des Moines.  We raised $720.  Not bad considering we gathered that in a week.  Next year we will have team shirts and a little more time to collect for this great organization helping in the fight against heart disease.

On Saturday July 21st we went to the Sioux Falls Airshow.  Aaron did great with his ear muffs.  Aaron was excited to see his Uncle Eric fly the F16.  On Monday July 23rd Aaron turned 9 months old.  He had a great dr. appt and the 9 month pictures should be super cute.  We took many pictures to remember daddy.