4 months. For those who look at that and think I’ve lost my mind, no I have not forgotten how to count, I just look at things a little different because we are 4 months from a YEAR. Can you believe it? I know I can’t.
We have done so much in the last 8 months but to recap the last month here you go:
The week of December 10th was for holiday parties. A group I attend called “No time to grieve I’m parenting” had a holiday party. It was great to be around people that “understand” and still celebrate the holiday. Then I was invited to Jay’s work holiday party. I felt honored to be invited. Jay’s co-workers spent almost as much time with him as Aaron and I did so I feel close to him when I’m surrounded by them. I am very fortunate to have such strong support from his co-workers. They are family.
The week of December 17th was for concerts. I went to the Blenders concert as well as Mannheim Steamrollers. I say a special THANK YOU to the two people that went with me to the concerts. There was laughter and tears both nights for different reasons. It was nice to get out and get myself in the “holiday spirit”. We were front row center for the Blenders concert and 3rd row pretty much center for Mannheim. My angel watching over me made sure we had the best seats in the house. J Aaron and I also survived our first snow storm together. Last year was so nice that in December I think we actually took Aaron for a stroller ride. Not so much this year.
The week of December 24th was…Christmas. The one word that made me buckle at the knees a few months prior was actually a good time. My family and I went to a hotel with a water park in Sioux Falls, SD just 30 minutes from my parent’s house. Aaron could show off his baby swimming skills…mommy could sleep…we could Christmas and just be. I am very fortunate for such an understanding and loving family. They are my rock.
The week of December 31st was New Years. It is otherwise known as the first holiday to actually make me buckle at the knees. I did NOT see that coming. A good friend of mine said it was because for the last 8 months I have been looking at the next day, or hour depending on the day and to look at the next year was probably a little overwhelming. I’m going to go with that explanation because it makes sense. All said and done I made it through the New Year so just one more thing to say I have done. This week also brought sinus problems for me. I never had sinus problems before…that was Jay’s thing. I know I got his wit when he passed but if this was part of the package as well…I send it ALL BACK. OK well maybe not the wit…that has come in handy a few times. J
So far this week Aaron and I have been to the ER and I spoke at John Deere Financial for a lunch and learn about Amanda the Panda and how they have helped me. OK, so back to the ER visit. Everyone is fine but Aaron had croup. Thank you to my friend that went with us to the ER to help me stay calm and hold Aaron as they gave him the liquid steroid and a breathing treatment. So in the first week of the year Aaron and I have been to the doctor 4 times. Let’s hope that slows down. I look at the next month and we stay busy. I am speaking at an Amanda the Panda event on January 17th and I am very excited. I love to speak and share our story. It’s therapeutic if you can believe it. We are also starting a kitchen renovation. So this month will be the “Taber Organize and Clean” initiative. I will make sure to take before/after pictures and maybe that is all next month’s update will be. 😉
I usually leave you with lyrics to a song right? Well in my NYE sadness I wrote a poem I would like to share instead. Thank you again for all of your support, I am standing today because of each and every one of you. I hope you all have a great week.
I miss you
Three words say it all
But when words fail me
It’s you I want to call
But you’re not here
To hold me close
Say it’ll be OK
We all have highs and lows
My heart hurts
I want to stay strong
I know you are gone
But that’s not where you belong
I love you
I live with fear
I miss you
I wish you were here